Does it make me a bad cousen because I want nothing to do with me new baby cousen?

well my aunt had a new baby and dont get me wrong she cute and all. and ive held her all of 1 time! in the hospital. anyway my aunt said i could hold her again on x-mas eve at nanas house but x-mas eve day she sent me an email telling me to stay away from her and when i sent her an email back telling her she went against her word basicly and she sent me and email back saying she just didnt want her baby being passed around like some toy and she said if it was such a big deal that she just wouldnt come. I told her to come and that i just wouldnt but i ended up going because my parents made me and it was fine we didnt talk or anything and trust me that was a good thing! bt shes always posting pics of her on fb and ive seen her maybe 1 or 2 times sice the incedent and she kept trying to get me to talk to her and stuf but i didnt want to. and i guess that made her a little mad idk 4 sure. but shes coming over wenseday and she is bringing the baby with her and i just dont wanna be there or c etheir one of them. I have not been on good terms with me aunt since then and i really dont wanna c her and ever since that icident i dont even eally want anything to o with ava (her baby) does it make me a bad cousen (also this is NOT her 1st baby so yeah dont no if thats has anything to do with it but idk!)
but i love little kids i have about 3 other litlle cousens and i love all of them s much! i even baby sit for a laddy acrss the street sometimes and she has 2 14month olds

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